Apa orang ini?

This post gonna very rojak so that sesetengah orang tak akan faham apa saya kata :D

Kawan saya ini yang saya anggap kawan baik, bukanlah 100%. Dia ada kawannya sendiri dan selalunya put them on top of list-nya melebihi saya. Wow, ingat saya akan sakit hati, tapi feeling tu dah takde.

8/10 bila saya ajak keluar, you kata tak senang, kat rumah orang lain, kena teman kawan ni buat apa apa .. Hey, kalaulah awak nak really maintain hubungan ini, tolonglah put in sikit effort boleh? Awak totally tak peduli apa saya akan harungi dan awak panggil ini kawan. Gilakah?

Sebenarnya, I sangat kecewa dengan kamu. You totally anggap saya transparent aje. Bila nak keluar call saya, tapi number of times you call takanlah lebih daripada 10 kali. So, apa ni?

Ada orang boleh tolong saya figure out apa ni?

*OMG my malay totally sucks. Epic fail !

The Truth

男生说……

有种女生让我很喜欢，

却不忍动情。

跟那种女生在一起时，

会有种温暖的感觉，

那感觉并不出自一时的冲动,

而是来自于彼此心灵的了解。

真的，跟那种女生在一起时，

只有彼此心中的感动和心灵的交会，

没错，

当你发现她的心和你是如此贴近时，

常会想给她个结实的拥抱，

但仅仅在这个想法萌生后的一瞬间，

你们只会相视一笑，

有些东西是比爱情更珍贵的。

这种女生当女朋友是种浪费……

我害怕她做的我女朋友后,

我必须每天守着电话等着她的声音出现，

我害怕我必须说些花言巧语的话哄她，

更加害怕现实的束缚，

会限制住纯洁的心。

这种女生，

喜欢，

但我不会动情，

或者，

这就叫红颜知己……

既不用为情所困，

为她的行为控制自己喜怒哀乐，

又能享有心灵上的交流。

有很多人都为交不到女朋友所苦，

但我觉得，

假如没有了这种知己，

人生，

便多了许多遗憾……

女生说……

有一些男生，

很令我动心，

但却不会动情。

怎么说呢，

因为他们给我的感觉像朋友，

真正的朋友 。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情、婚姻、人生……

以及种种的烦恼……

在他们面前，

我会忘记自己是女生，

就不会撒娇、嫉妒、小心眼……

我和他们各站在天平的两端，

我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来，

在车站挥挥手，各自去等自己的车，走自己的路。

这种感觉……

是一种很难用语言能形容的愉悦……

信不信 ，

跟这些男生相处在一起，

甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快。

女生的聚会，是黏稠稠的，

像一锅浓粥，温暖在胸，

但是吃多了会撑，一眨眼又饿，

而且很多女生都为情所困，

谈来谈去总是心有千千结，

别人管也管不完，跟这些男生相处，

我很惊讶……

他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘，

就能一眼洞穿人生的奥秘，

甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯，

能结交有智慧、理想与热情的朋友，

是人一生莫大的幸福吧 。

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质，

也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待，

不因为我是女生，

就随便说些甜言蜜语来哄我，

或者根本不睬我 。

如果追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜，

那我实在「舍不得」把这些男生当成男朋友，

我害怕一旦变成男女朋友，

我就会计较他不送我回家……

他不说些好听的动心话……

他宁可送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一粒巧克力……

我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁，

微笑地看他在众人间侃侃而谈，

我发问的机会都没有。

男女之间，其实不只有爱情……

有种友情，是只可会意不可言传的。

彼此之间有种惺惺相惜的感觉，

不必害怕别人的误会，

因为彼此心中坦荡，

很喜欢这种“兄弟”之称的友谊，

这种朋友有种信赖的安全感，

可以肆无忌惮的说笑，

天马行空的胡扯，

彼此之间没有包袱，

但有种珍惜，

是对友谊的珍惜。

你也许会对他(她）撒娇，

但不会妒忌他（她）对别人也如此，

不用再他面前装做淑女（或不用在她面前装做绅士），

有种朋友即使很久没见也不会生疏，

相见时的相视一笑，

便会有种心有灵犀的感觉，

和他（她）在一起时，

不必担心会背叛你，

因为他只会给你默默地支持，

即使你受伤了，

他也会给你做坚强的后盾。

心情不好时，

他(她)会装傻逗你笑，

生病时，他(她)会叮嘱你要小心什么，

每逢特别节日时，

他（她)会发一条简信祝福你，

很多人都希望有这种友谊，

因为它不需要负担与责任，

我想这种友谊也要讲机缘吧，

友谊也需要关心、谅解、信任。

我希望友谊地久天长。

我很珍惜我身边的每一位朋友谢谢你们对我的支持与爱护。

Confusion

Why?

Tell me why this thing is still so confusing for me? Isn't it already been at least 4 weeks that we didnt go college? And why the heck everything is still the same?

Wait !

Noooooooo, it's becoming worse !!!

It's getting deeper and deeper, more and more + I almost cant control myself. Oh lord, come on help me would you? Im desperately needing some rewards here to fill up the emptyness T.T

If you can't fulfill me, then gimme some signs to stop. At least I can give up hoping or I will turn mad @@

Man, I DISLIKE it. YOU !!! Stop exploring my mind :((

Missing you

Probably my head was hit by some kind of hard brick or stone wall.

I miss you :((

I had no idea why I would feel that. It just felt like a hole and this isnt feeling good.

Probably I was home for too long facing 4 walls, that's why .. Now, I need to get out of the house ~

And tell me where should I go?

Is this the end?

So.

Everything seems clear now.

What's being wondering, is fixed. What's being questioned, is answered. What's been waiting to happen, is happenned.

Once the cloud is over, the sun will shines again.

It's defined that everything remained in the same spot is the best solution. No hope, no fall. Eventhough sometimes you will still wishing, but clear hint had been given and you just have to accept the fact that it is not what you think.

Feeding yourself more and more hope doesnt help. I find it useful when you treat your mind strong and direct it to the way you want it to be. Dont let it roams around cause by the time you realised, you've already been trapped.

I've been curious and confused. But now, I shouldnt ruined the whole thing. So I will make up my mind and everything will stay the way it is :D

So, wake up and realise.

What?

What?

I dont know.

Huh?

*Shakes head*

Pretty much this post is boring (stop reading at this point and close this tab would help :) )

I have no idea why I wrote this post at the first place, probably just to annoy you and waste your time cuz Im wasting mine LOL

Something I have been wondering for awhile came up clear in my mind. That, hah this is probably not the right option yet. So, who cares? Live my life now happily as I can ;))

What will come, will come. So do as bro said : Just chill xD

Hah, good one ;)

Heart wrenching

I have no idea what happened to myself. Did my heart just wrenched?

If yes, why?

Jealousy is something that you cant control. It just happen to be like that and you just happen to feel it.

Whatever man, I dont wanna have this feeling,

GO AWAY !!!

Life

Hey guys, come over an awesome and meaningful article and I decided to share some interesting phrases.

There you go:

Small things you do in your life , shows your Attitude towards life.

Everything happens for a Reason.

Success, Failure , Frustrations , Depression , Sadness , Happiness everything happens for a reason. Life works in a mysterious way and takes us to our destination.

Your passion lives in every thing you do, even how you treat people shows your passion.

A true friend is somebody who makes your life better.

Too much of anything is bad, so take a break once in a while.

Sometimes you have to earn your respect.

You see, some people actually figure out how to treat life better and be wise. But why there are still many people that don’t want to listen and be helped? They locked themselves in the dark room and do not allow anyone to come in.

Humans are supposed to help humans. That’s the only way we could survive and live in the same planet. There is no such thing as YOU and ME, it’s all about US.

So wake up people, let’s enjoy our life since it is not very long and never be long enough.

Most meaningful quote of all :

Life will knock you down. You can choose whether to get back up.

I thought

Dear diary,

I thought I had put it down.
I thought I had it burried and wouldnt be brought up again.
I thought I was going to see some sunlight and get some relieve.
I thought I will not feel it anymore.

But I was wrong.
Those were just my thoughts.
I spend weeks to build the high wall and you blew it just with your existance.
This is so not fair.
Why I have to bear with it?