Apa orang ini?

This post gonna very rojak so that sesetengah orang tak akan faham apa saya kata :D

Kawan saya ini yang saya anggap kawan baik, bukanlah 100%. Dia ada kawannya sendiri dan selalunya put them on top of list-nya melebihi saya. Wow, ingat saya akan sakit hati, tapi feeling tu dah takde.

8/10 bila saya ajak keluar, you kata tak senang, kat rumah orang lain, kena teman kawan ni buat apa apa .. Hey, kalaulah awak nak really maintain hubungan ini, tolonglah put in sikit effort boleh? Awak totally tak peduli apa saya akan harungi dan awak panggil ini kawan. Gilakah?

Sebenarnya, I sangat kecewa dengan kamu. You totally anggap saya transparent aje. Bila nak keluar call saya, tapi number of times you call takanlah lebih daripada 10 kali. So, apa ni?

Ada orang boleh tolong saya figure out apa ni?

*OMG my malay totally sucks. Epic fail !

The Truth

男生说……

有种女生让我很喜欢，

却不忍动情。

跟那种女生在一起时，

会有种温暖的感觉，

那感觉并不出自一时的冲动,

而是来自于彼此心灵的了解。

真的，跟那种女生在一起时，

只有彼此心中的感动和心灵的交会，

没错，

当你发现她的心和你是如此贴近时，

常会想给她个结实的拥抱，

但仅仅在这个想法萌生后的一瞬间，

你们只会相视一笑，

有些东西是比爱情更珍贵的。

这种女生当女朋友是种浪费……

我害怕她做的我女朋友后,

我必须每天守着电话等着她的声音出现，

我害怕我必须说些花言巧语的话哄她，

更加害怕现实的束缚，

会限制住纯洁的心。

这种女生，

喜欢，

但我不会动情，

或者，

这就叫红颜知己……

既不用为情所困，

为她的行为控制自己喜怒哀乐，

又能享有心灵上的交流。

有很多人都为交不到女朋友所苦，

但我觉得，

假如没有了这种知己，

人生，

便多了许多遗憾……

女生说……

有一些男生，

很令我动心，

但却不会动情。

怎么说呢，

因为他们给我的感觉像朋友，

真正的朋友 。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情、婚姻、人生……

以及种种的烦恼……

在他们面前，

我会忘记自己是女生，

就不会撒娇、嫉妒、小心眼……

我和他们各站在天平的两端，

我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来，

在车站挥挥手，各自去等自己的车，走自己的路。

这种感觉……

是一种很难用语言能形容的愉悦……

信不信 ，

跟这些男生相处在一起，

甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快。

女生的聚会，是黏稠稠的，

像一锅浓粥，温暖在胸，

但是吃多了会撑，一眨眼又饿，

而且很多女生都为情所困，

谈来谈去总是心有千千结，

别人管也管不完，跟这些男生相处，

我很惊讶……

他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘，

就能一眼洞穿人生的奥秘，

甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯，

能结交有智慧、理想与热情的朋友，

是人一生莫大的幸福吧 。

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质，

也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待，

不因为我是女生，

就随便说些甜言蜜语来哄我，

或者根本不睬我 。

如果追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜，

那我实在「舍不得」把这些男生当成男朋友，

我害怕一旦变成男女朋友，

我就会计较他不送我回家……

他不说些好听的动心话……

他宁可送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一粒巧克力……

我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁，

微笑地看他在众人间侃侃而谈，

我发问的机会都没有。

男女之间，其实不只有爱情……

有种友情，是只可会意不可言传的。

彼此之间有种惺惺相惜的感觉，

不必害怕别人的误会，

因为彼此心中坦荡，

很喜欢这种“兄弟”之称的友谊，

这种朋友有种信赖的安全感，

可以肆无忌惮的说笑，

天马行空的胡扯，

彼此之间没有包袱，

但有种珍惜，

是对友谊的珍惜。

你也许会对他(她）撒娇，

但不会妒忌他（她）对别人也如此，

不用再他面前装做淑女（或不用在她面前装做绅士），

有种朋友即使很久没见也不会生疏，

相见时的相视一笑，

便会有种心有灵犀的感觉，

和他（她）在一起时，

不必担心会背叛你，

因为他只会给你默默地支持，

即使你受伤了，

他也会给你做坚强的后盾。

心情不好时，

他(她)会装傻逗你笑，

生病时，他(她)会叮嘱你要小心什么，

每逢特别节日时，

他（她)会发一条简信祝福你，

很多人都希望有这种友谊，

因为它不需要负担与责任，

我想这种友谊也要讲机缘吧，

友谊也需要关心、谅解、信任。

我希望友谊地久天长。

我很珍惜我身边的每一位朋友谢谢你们对我的支持与爱护。

My honey Mina :D

It is the last birthday event for crazy 4 and here is Mina's big day today ♥


Dear honey,

You have no idea how much I love you and wanna be with you for the rest of my life. You're like the moon and the stars ... *wait* That's suppose to be for my bf. LOL kiddin, you're my little honey and at the very first place, it's been pleasure meeting you and be friends.

As we all knew I met you the very first time in college during the orientation. You're the first person I know and the age was almost the same although you're one year elder than me. (Hey sista ^^) But nothing came between us as barriers. We can speak to each other's mind like water flows, light and easy :)

As a toothpick, you have the skinny characteristics that I wanted >"< Argh, when am I gonna lose some weight. But you always said you need to gain some, it would be perfect if we're mixed and devide into 2. Let's go operation and we'll be perfect :D

Sometimes you're crazy, sometimes you're sedimental. Most of the time it suits us well and we did pretty much insane stuff together. We shared thoughts and dreams where some people do not understands the main purpose. We shared some secrets where only the 2 of us know in the whole wide world, hah !

Speaking of the way we keep it together, there is nothing more to say about it. Im not a person who is good at words to describe people or put together an essay about a person's history life (plus my english sucks :( pls forgive ) Hanging out much and there comes along crazy 4 and we're like a family within the world. A community that we shared and only we could control it. I did say that sometimes it's swaying but we always put it together with the biggest effort and it gets stronger every single day ♥

Fashion and girly stuff was your strength and I totally have no doubt about it (speaking of the 0% sense of fashion in my whole body >"<). You did be a great assistance for celebrity fashion I would say if you're not in hospitality, hehe :) But since one of your greatest dream was to have your own restaurant, I did say I will support it totally with hands and legs and myself if I can throw myself in the air (better not, elephant drop can leads to earthquake :P)

So here are some memories and what I have been through with you from the day I started knowing you. Getting to know a person is not easy and it takes time and heart. As I said before a freidnship was tied together it takes effort from both side and it's unrelated to time being.

Hence, happy birthday as the ending of the post would be a great start of you new year again and we would be as great and do more crazy stuff LOL. So now, would you be my little honey forever? ♥

*Wonder if this post is too cheesy? :P

How?

How? Just tell me how come it become like that? I didnt blame you for her existance and it probably come too fast I would say.

We need time to get along with her and pls dont force it because every person work out differently. We've been out with her for the past week, and just need you for a couple of hours. Im pretty sure that she can survive without you for a few hours >"<

Last few weeks you're ignoring us that we're not calling you up and sort of abandon you. Now it's the opposite, since she came to your life there is no more us anymore. Im clear that you need time for her, but just this few hours we need you.

Whatever, there is no point talking cuz what is gonna change will change and we've done everything to keep it together. It's your choice if you wanna break it down by your own hands.

Go ahead. No one stops you.

My birthday present :D

Sorry for the belated post of my most precious birthday gift. Now I would like ya'll to sit back and relax :D



Billions of thanks to Crazy 4 for making me this video and certainly huge appreciation to Zin baby who took 2 days just to make it perfect ♥

You guys have no idea how much I love this and I will keep that in mind for the rest of my life ♥ Heaps of kisses and hugs to you guys :))

♥ Love you all ♥
♥ Mina ♥
♥ Zin ♥
♥ Adrian ♥

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - Main Trailer

This is why I love him so much that I could possibly imagine ♥

To be honest I have no idea of this novel before my parents bring me to the cinema and watch the very first movie. It gave me the greatest impression in my life of movie would be - Magic.

The content and story line was so perfect that Harry Potter series was my most favourite movie since I was in the age of 12 (even till now). Every single storybook and movies I have it at home in my room protected. Watched and read all of it in uncounted times already and I still would get bored of it. That's how successful it is to possesed my heart towards it and locked it tight.

I was a freaking big fan of it that I would put down whatever I am doing whever it's news was coming up on TV. Stop eating my dinner and stick my eyes on the screen when there is any glimpse of him on news. Dashed out of the room half way doing homework and carry the risk of yelled by my mom just to listen to his news sometimes. Well that's how crazy I am about harry potter ♥

There is a HP file that I kept in house of all the news that I can lay my hands on on newpapers about the series. Cutting the newspapers out and make it into a folio of it ;)) All my classmates knew that Im a harry potter freak and even some of the teacher's knew it LOL.

I just cant help being depressed when the movie had finally come to an end that I would no longer be expecting anymore stories of harry potter adventure would be found in books. JK Rowling promissed that the seventh book would be the last so here ends my hope too. But nevermind, the whole series had been great and company my childhood with great personalities and moral valued that I can ever learn.

So, here I pronounced that Harry Potter would be always my piority movie and be on top of my lists forever ♥

Mid-Autumn Festival

Olala. It's mid-autumn festival again and I totally lost track of it until I saw mooncake on shelf in asian supermarket. How bad I am >"<

But anyway, it wasnt a big deal in my opinion since Im not with my family. What we did for the past 17 years was having reunion dinner ot grandma would have cooked for us. Kids or big kids like me would be playing candles and 'tanglong' in the garden or front yard with brothers or cousins. Burning up the dried and not dried leaves, sticks, candle boxes or anything we can find to burn. LOL.

It's like a girl guide camp where everyone pick up something to light up fire, so much fun back the days. But currently Im in state where people do not care about this festival anymore. It was just an ordinary day for them, nothing special.

I wonder how human become so cold nowadays. Where is all the passion and hope and joyment of celebrating traditional festivals. It's not that we're asking you to pray or do something ritual that the ancestors usually do. Just a dinner or reunion within family - if yours is around or friends - if you're away from your family.

But I think people who care about what this day really means are almost extinct. Even when this day arrives I only think of holidays and meeting up with cousins and have fun. All my head was filled with only fun, reunion and the longing to see relatives :))

This festival should be continued no matter how many people actually do know what it means. (Be honest every single kid was taught this day's real purpose back when we're in the age of 9, but I dont think the memory still cling to it >"<) Let we all still keep in mind that this day was a reunion day and suppose to be catch up with family and friends.

So, happy mid-autumn festival people. Did you catch up with anybody?

First visit to Hillsong

Promised Shelby that I would go to church with her today and finally after months of rejection (she's been asking every single sunday), I went Hillsong with her couple of hours ago. The service started at 5 and we catch a shuttle bus with 7-11 sandwich to stuff down our troat just to stop the noise coming out from our stomach.

*Bit of update of hotel. Kitchen renovation started today and I must say it's such a bad idea. Why on earth you should start today? Dont you know today is sunday? The most busiest day in the whole week and yet the management wanna start renovation today, now show me where is your brain @@ Okay whatever. Stop complaining.

And what happen today? It was so busy that the manager had to come into servery to help. oh yeah forgot to mention we're short or one staff today. Btw, no break for 7 1/2 hours. Imagine that each table you've gotta run the drinks and toast for at least 3 times, minus the specials and extra orders. Now we have each table turn over at least twice for the whole morning, so do the math. I went to deliver for each table at least 6 times and there is 30 tables there, only me as the drink runner today. Phew ! I should glad that I had long legs :))*

So back to church. To be honest it was totally different from what I expected and thought of a church would be. Probably it was in Aus and it's more modern or something, but suprisingly I found it nice :D I believe it was an international chain church and the organisation was quite big and organise. They were very friendly and everyone seems to know everyone. It's like a small family among the world that everyone gather around and study the bible, sing and pray together.

The service started like a concert with 3 hit songs where everybody stand and sing together. The 6 singers and choir were like stars performing and we're like audience watching concert, pretty amazing for a church. The even have X factor auditions within the church which basically runs like american idols stuff kinda thingy too. Everyone can join and just show your talent on stage ;)

Oh, I forgot to mention the video live broadcasting to the whole world :P There is broadcasting group behind video-ing the whole service, cool eh xD That's why they made so much money. Just proceed to the dvd shop outlet and you can view the service at home whenever you like without missing it out every week. == (The MC really know how to promote their product) Yeah, you can obviously do that, just that somehing will be missing from your pocket that's it, nothing hurts you :P

Now the main part is the paster. He was british and he is just hillarious (his talk is meaningful too) Half and hour bible study which I thought Im gonna sleep was actually interesting for me. Relate it to his real life experience and what the bible says was just like a piece of cake for him, well obviously he did it for years. But still, I gave him much more credit on his jokes and it was all meaningful jokes that realted to our daily life. You walk out from the auditorium thinking that today Ive learn something and it was easy to remember cuz it came from a joke, and everyone seems to learn a lesson every week :))

So, enough of babbling here. Gotta go to bed and hide under my blankie cuz it's cold after shower. So my first attempt to church, nice :)) Will go if there is chance next time !

*Just got to know grandpa's sister passed away this morning, Im sorry to hear that. RIP.*

Day off

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz ....

Honestly having day off is BORING without plans. Everyone is working or have something else to do, now why on earth I dont have? >"<

Facing the comp again and this aint good for skin and eyes and mind and your whole body, LOL. But too bad I have nothing else to do except books and comp.

So choose wisely and plan nice for your day off, or you will end up like me wasting your day off by doing nothing useful or unuseful xD

Well well let me see if I can dig something outta my room and do, so ciao :D

Confusion

Why?

Tell me why this thing is still so confusing for me? Isn't it already been at least 4 weeks that we didnt go college? And why the heck everything is still the same?

Wait !

Noooooooo, it's becoming worse !!!

It's getting deeper and deeper, more and more + I almost cant control myself. Oh lord, come on help me would you? Im desperately needing some rewards here to fill up the emptyness T.T

If you can't fulfill me, then gimme some signs to stop. At least I can give up hoping or I will turn mad @@

Man, I DISLIKE it. YOU !!! Stop exploring my mind :((

Little updates

Wow, it's almost been a week since I updated. So many stuffs happen everyday and Im proud to see it coming and enjoy the process :))

Work is mainly the task that I had to do every morning til 3pm. Honestly, so freakin' tired @@ Not that the bfast shift is tiring but the after shift work -------> The stupid idiot floor check, I hate it so much (though Shelby asked me to embrace it ==" which I doubt I can) Arent this suppose to be room service job to clean the stuff up? Argh, I just hate it so much like I hate housekeeping !

Overall everything is so awesome, hehe :D The chefs are all so nice and friendly, my collegues and managers are so brilliant and homour and helfpful, arghhhhhhh .. They are just all so nice people that you can ever imagine to work with :))

Put aside my work, my hang outs life ^^

Been out with crazy 4 ytd and laughed a lottttttttttttt !!! OMG gatherings like this is just perfect for me eventhough Im tired, I just cant help wanted it to happen every single day. We went for dinner and just played UNO for the next 2 hours. Man, all I can say is this is such an awesome creation ;)) I cant find words to describe it anymore.. Pls forgive my poor english and vocab T.T

Oh yeah, before I disappear for unknown days again. Ive sucessfully bought the ticket back to msia on the 29th Jan, yay !!! Ipoh frens and family and all the love ones, here I comeeeee ♥

我期待太多

It was my big day today. I really appreaciate what crazy 4 had done for me. Zin took days to make the typography video for me while mina and bro contibuted their voice and my presents :) All my frens that wished me happy birthday on facebook and texted me and called me, love you guys much ♥ You guys made my day so much better :D

发现这是我有史以来第一次用华语写部落格，哈哈，还不错。。希望华语没生锈吧：D

所谓生日呢应该是最享受的一天吧？但我的好象有点在我预料之外，是好是坏你们就自己去猜吧我不想解释太多。

不过应该很容易猜 XD

收到的礼物我超喜欢！好朋友们都做了段影片来祝福我，可以说感动得要流泪了。尤其是做影片不是他们的强项，而且还用了以天来计算的时间才有现在的结果。所以说真的很感谢你们♥

但我想说一点就是我想要的其实是一段美好的回忆。一段就算我老了也能骄傲的告诉孙子们奶奶成经有过这样一般要好的朋友帮她庆生。可惜今年的这一段应该算不上，不是说我不珍惜，但可能是我期待太多了吧。

我了解清楚你们有工作要做，而且有自己的事再忙。但我只要求一天的时间，看来今天不是个好日子。不过没关系，至少我们有小小的庆祝，比起没有来的好吧：）

哈哈做人要知足，这是妈常告诉我的。所以我会知足。

最后，在此感谢所有祝福我的朋友们。是你们让我有了一个那么美好的一天，谢谢 ♥ 我也祝全天下今天生日的人生日快乐，让我们一起期待明年会更好吧！：）

First Day

Okay, I've went through my first day. One word, tired @@

Normally 7-2 shift was fun during weekends with shelby, but today I'm doing it with the arrivals >"<

I HATE FLOOR CHECK !!!

Cant the housekeeping just bring them down to the stewarding themselves? So many trays and trolleys .. And the guests too, cant they just get their ass to the elevator and come down to restaurant to have their bfast?

Is that hard to come down from your room to have bfast? We had to get all the way up to your room and down to the stewarding to clear it. =.=" Lazy pig :P I know it's nice to have bfast on bed and especially you're on holiday and vacation and willing to pay so much for the service, but eh hello we're tired lah >"< If your tips isn't good enough, you better watch out ! Lol kiddin' :))

But anyway that's why we charge them MORE in room service, hehe ^^ Here is the advantage part, anything that's not on the menu, hohoho cherge it your own price xD Have you ever had an in house omelet and cappucino for bfast which cost $35? LOL, provided they give tips as well, muahahahaha :D

Overall everything went well today. Heeee and I'm taking a month off for returning to Msia next year, the manager was so kind that he even plan with me which date I should take off, hahaha :)) Love you all my collegues and managers and chefs, muacks ^^

Anyway, I know I shouldn't complain on the first day, but I just wanna share it xD TeeHee !

New life ?

It's kinda weird telling everyone that I'm gonna start working now. They were all like: 'wow you finished your studies?' Nah, fyi, I'm gonna start my Industry Placement as well as earning some pocket money to top up my shopping budget :)) Kiddin' xD

My full time job gonna start on tuesday and it's a b'fast shift. OMG. This means I'm gonna go to work at 6am in the SUPER early morning. Haih, money really hard to earn ah ... xD

Well it's still alright cuz Im with an awesome team, nice people and excellent workplace, so who will complain? I really enjoy working there (includes the optimistic pay, muahaha xD) since I started the beginning of this year. The managers were all so nice and all the collegues are so friendly and helpful. You cant expect more to be so perfect on your first job right? Heee :D

So here I am, finished my 4th term and currently walking into semi realistic world to take up some responsibility for myself. It's time for me to see what the real world looks like instead of reading everything from the book and learning the thoeries. But let me tell you something, it's not easy as everyone said.

It's real penny that your employer is paying you and you're really doing something that the world is doing. You cant just say oh I made a mistake and start all over again. Nah, that's not gonna happen. This is not the school, this is the real war plate. Either you do it your boss's way, or you can end up in the high way, your choice.

Meeting different people every single day in this industry is just as common as you drink water everyday. My mom used to tell me there are many kinds of people that made up this whole world. Yea it's absolutely true cuz you never know what kind of person you're meeting now and the next one. He could be very nice and next minute before you know the next one was shouting at your face.

When you're working, you just have to be smart. Knew what's the time to talk and what's the time to do things. Of cuz this all takes up experience,time and blah blah blah but you know what, not everyone can get that. This requires some common sense too which again not everyone have LOL

So, cut short and stop blowing water, I would like to work my way up and hopefully had more career development chance, hee :D

Wish me luck people ^^

I expected too much

Hahahahahahaha michelle this is so funny, why? because you heard the same thing that cut your heart again. Great. And the one who is saying is? ......

"U R so annoying >"<"

This is what I got yesterday from someone that I cared. And yet that flash of pain just cut my pumping heart. I told myself and promise my frens that I wouldnt get that pain again. Im sorry now I did and it is just out of expected.

Probably that person is just joking or I am really annoying. I guess I'm just too disturbing. I'm sorry if I bothered you, but is this phrase that I couldnt take it anymore. It hurts me few years back and I have no courage to take it again. I'm sorry that I annoyed you and I will not do that again.

Now let me freeze for a moment. I dont wanna rewind what happen few years back.

I need to go away.

Missing you

Probably my head was hit by some kind of hard brick or stone wall.

I miss you :((

I had no idea why I would feel that. It just felt like a hole and this isnt feeling good.

Probably I was home for too long facing 4 walls, that's why .. Now, I need to get out of the house ~

And tell me where should I go?